27th Sept. again. this year, its someone else breaking my heart, but that emptiness, it feels the same. i haven't stopped hoping that you're doing great, but i want to be doing better than you are.

Happy birthday, to you.

you may forget things, pushed away the things that lurk in the recesses or thrown them out into the abyss of void forgetting,

but i am not like this.

even if, i'll no longer be the one to steal your pain and hold you despite all.

its ok, its over.
thank God for allowing things to be set straight

whispered words in the dead of night
that i wont forget.
but its time for me to go.

well, yes.
bu zai hui tou le.
2007 yi lu zou lai hen bu rong yi
dan yi qie dou jie shu le.
xi wang 2008 hui geng hao.

gencainingshuoshengzaijian
congciwomenjiudanghaopengyoule.
kailiwozouguolaile. :)

went to the museum today,
and well. i love the company very much.

its time,
to decide, to resolve,
which will determine eternal direction.

ive never prayed so hard,
(or cried) in a long while.








let me know what its gonna be,

the surgeon said,

this wont hurt.
cutting your heart out wont hurt.



its NOT supposed to.

hello my friend, Merry Christmas.
the magnetism i feel's just an illusion,
i hope.
let it subside,
and i will walk on stronger this time round.

was listening to this song:
蔡旻佑- 我想要说

看着右手 被撕裂的伤口
爱好像曾经停留
而我左手 按下号码之后
那酋属于我的 歌不再播送

整夜的风 冷得我手颤抖
你在温暖的那头
熟悉路口 再一次的路过
等在那角落 的人已不是我

默写你的爱过 坦承自己脆弱
对白怎么说 表情才不难过

我想要说 我想要说
如果没有了你 我该如何往下走
那一秒钟 有没有发现我 倔强里的问候
怎么劝我放手 在这一切之后

and i liked its tune alot.
but no, i wont let the lyrics suck me in. :)
choose to pray, to smile, to be happy.

its a gd talk, one unprecedented since
well, a year ago i guess.
and i will learn to appreciate this friendship
and the providence of the Lord. :)

23rd dec,

heh val its a sequel from the call the day before.

but its ok,
even if i felt really weird.


and with you, just talking after such a long span of time;
i think you come to realise
when you dont matter anymore to someone
everything changes.
its ok, we've got our friendship,
and i hope we'll see each other thru many more christmases to come.